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awashrpg2018-09-02 01:26 pm
withwisdom) wrote in awashrpg2018-09-02 01:26 pm
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Addressed to all:
Now that things have settled again after the recent incident, I want to make an offering.
As a child, and into my adult years, I underwent spiritual training on a daily basis to forge a bond with the ancient gods of my land. The purpose of this training was to unlock myself to the world, and gain its wisdom in the process. Though it was a long process, I was successful.
In times of struggle and strife, it can be difficult to figure out where one should turn. It's easy to feel abandoned, and harder to feel united, and you may question if there is any care in the grand scheme of the universe. No one person won't ask themselves if they should take their sufferings and bottle them inside, or reveal them to the world with the fear of judgment. To take hammer to the wall that shields the vulnerable heart is no easy task. Some don't want to break it. Others need help.
To insert an opinion into this, I no longer trust in the higher beings on this realm who brought us here to be of any help. They want us to restore their color, but don't care to grant us any protections in danger. So we must help ourselves, and each other, in times of disillusionment. I've come to feel very strongly about this following the sirens kidnapping.
The purpose of this posting is such: I want to offer myself to others as a spiritual guide. If you feel yourself conflicted, or feeling you have lost your path, or if you want to pray with someone beside you, then you may request me. I ask for nothing in return other than your patience and belief. More so in yourself than me.
If you have questions you may place them here. Comments and discussion into these topics are also accepted.
-Zelda
Addressed to all:
Now that things have settled again after the recent incident, I want to make an offering.
As a child, and into my adult years, I underwent spiritual training on a daily basis to forge a bond with the ancient gods of my land. The purpose of this training was to unlock myself to the world, and gain its wisdom in the process. Though it was a long process, I was successful.
In times of struggle and strife, it can be difficult to figure out where one should turn. It's easy to feel abandoned, and harder to feel united, and you may question if there is any care in the grand scheme of the universe. No one person won't ask themselves if they should take their sufferings and bottle them inside, or reveal them to the world with the fear of judgment. To take hammer to the wall that shields the vulnerable heart is no easy task. Some don't want to break it. Others need help.
To insert an opinion into this, I no longer trust in the higher beings on this realm who brought us here to be of any help. They want us to restore their color, but don't care to grant us any protections in danger. So we must help ourselves, and each other, in times of disillusionment. I've come to feel very strongly about this following the sirens kidnapping.
The purpose of this posting is such: I want to offer myself to others as a spiritual guide. If you feel yourself conflicted, or feeling you have lost your path, or if you want to pray with someone beside you, then you may request me. I ask for nothing in return other than your patience and belief. More so in yourself than me.
If you have questions you may place them here. Comments and discussion into these topics are also accepted.
-Zelda
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def dont trust them NOW though
im
doing ok
[Not really but whatever.]
but its cool youre offering help like that
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[ hm. ]
I suppose you won't take me up on it though? An exorcist who does not pray. I remember we had a talk about this before.
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feel bad for all those times i teased yukio about getting colds easily getting sick really sucks
[Oh. Right. That...]
we did
i dunno its not that i dont want to
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but i was raised catholic, and even as a kid i felt like i didnt really belong there? of course i found out later i was a demon, which if you go by basic catholicism is basically like the worst thing anyone can be? exorcists deal with demons because at least some of them cause problems for humans and even hurt them
you know me by now im not like that and ive learned since i joined the order that not all demons are evil but
it still makes me feel like theres really no place for someone like me
im not a demon
but im not a human anymore either
im just
me
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[ she doesn't know anything about catholicism - it's the first time she's even seeing that word - but she does understand the ways how religion can bred ostracism. ]
Tell me Rin, did you ever want to be Catholic, or was it something you felt you had to be because others told you that you must?
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[Needless to say, it fucked him up something good when he found out.]
i was
not born in to it but raised in it?
a lot of people in my world go in to religion because its just a part of their family. theyre born in to christian or catholic or whatever household
some do go off and find their own faith later on in life when theyre older, or go away from it all together like i did a few years ago but for the most part growing up all i knew was being catholic because dad was a priest and we grew up in the boy's home attached to the southern cross monestary
its not like dad told us we had to be one way or the other and he didnt make a big deal when i stopped going to regular services and said i wasnt interested anymore but i think other people in the community did judge me behind my back for it
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Creation is inexplicably linked to the golden goddesses who gave birth to the world, the laws of it, and the people. Those who dissent, perhaps feeling that they have been wronged in their faith, are often looked down upon for not believing in the word of our guardian goddess Hylia.
For all my preaching here, I too have felt abandoned by the gods. I gave them so much of my time, my energy, and myself, and received no sign in return. Worship is the act of giving a part of yourself over to an unseen and uncaring force, and asking them to acknowledge you.
Nothing can be harder than speaking to someone you don't think is even listening, and to continue doing so even when in doubt.
My father had demanded I keep in line with spiritual trainings, even when I didn't want to. It's good to hear your father was not so forceful as to make you believe when you had lost faith. A good spiritual guide knows when someone must step away, only hoping in their heart that they will return.
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[That's a short reply to her long one, but for the moment he's focused on there being only that one faith in her world.]
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where im from its not like that
i cant even count how many different religions and beliefs there are and its all because no one person really knows for sure what the actual truth is
catholics and christians believe in one god
buddhists dont worship so much as they have a lot of traditions and practices
i think its uh hindu that follow multiple gods and deities
shinto is similar, the one was really common where im from (japan) but its not as practiced anymore? i do know a priestess, though
and i already mentioned the one where there isnt any belief one way or the other
that barely even covers whats in my world
i think it has something do with humans being spread all over different lands and whatever but thats something youd have to ask someone like my brother about
kinda hurting my head trying to think of all this I barely paid attention in class
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[ how fascinating. she had assumed the realms of other worlds would be clear and set on how creation happened, but that isn't the case. is this why so many people here aren't interested in prayer then? disillusionment, or the feeling of simply not relying on a force they don't know is there... it makes more sense now. ]
You don't have to worry about giving me explanations about it. I think I have a better understanding now. Of your realm's religions, and of your experience with them.
To not know anything at all, to be blind about the surrounding world without answer, must be of great challenge. Though she may not answer, I know with certainty that Hylia watches over me. But to think there are people who aren't even sure at all.
[ the message stops there. she isn't even sure what to say to that. ]
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is
is it ok if i ask how you know?
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[ that's the simplest answer in the end. ]
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im kinda jealous you can be so sure about that
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Well, I'm sure I don't have to tell you that though. Given your own struggles.
[ there's also another factor to all this, one she cannot speak of. not to anyone. her status as a royal is all but a trifle to having the blood of the goddess in her veins. the thought of being treated differently is still deeply frightening to her. ]
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i dont know if ill ever get back there
i feel like all i can do right now is believe in myself
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[ she put too much belief in them and she thinks it warped her a lot. things are different - she's different now - but memories of heartaches don't fade easy. ]
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[Though their "adventure" on the island sure did shake him quite a bit.]