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[underworldpianist]

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I think it's finally hit me, how long I might be here. How long I might be away from everyone.

I don't remember any time before that I've felt... I suppose 'lonely' is the best way to describe it. The feeling isn't unfamiliar, but until now, it'd been so distant in my heart that I couldn't remember it.

I've been with my friends, my comrades, for a few human centuries now. I don't know how just a few months here feels even longer than that. I'm at a loss, especially without him to watch out for. I find myself waiting for him sometimes in the morning, thinking he'll show up, hungry and sleepy-eyed, but he's not here. It's better he's not when there's always so much work to do, really, but I guess I never thought any of us would be apart.

Death can't separate us, after all. I'm surprised anything was powerful or manipulative enough to keep them from finding a way here.

I guess I wonder how other people are coping with it. How you deal with not being around the person or people you've centered your life around and love so dearly. I don't think I comprehend those feelings as well as a human would, but it'd be nice to just talk about those feelings together.

Comments

[underworldpianist]

I will make sure that they are absolutely jealous of the intelligent and lovely journalist I've gone on such fun adventures with. That is a promise.

[scooptimistic]

Aww, Saeki! This is why you're one of my favorites.

[underworldpianist]

And you are one of mine. I hope we continue to have adventures together and I thank you for cheering me up. I feel a little better now. Making a good friend here has helped me keep my head up, too.

[scooptimistic]

Well, I'm the same. I think it's easier to get through any situation if you don't have to go it alone.

But at the same time, Saeki, if you're feeling bad or sad about something, you know you can tell me, right? I may not have known you for centuries, but I'm sure I can support you in some way!

[underworldpianist]

Thank you. It doesn't matter how many years you've lived, your kindness and optimism are enough to make you a good support. I'll be happy to support you, too.

[scooptimistic]

Is this a compliment challenge now? Because I won't lose!

[ Maya, no. ]

[underworldpianist]

We can make it one, but I won't be as good at it as you are.

[ has he already started or is he being serious? who knows? ]

[scooptimistic]

[ the world may never know. ]

Oh, I don't know about that. The really surprising compliments come from the ones you don't expect it from.

[underworldpianist]

Really? I guess they have an element of surprise to them when it's from someone who's usually less .. mm... polite?

[scooptimistic]

Well, you're polite, but compliments from you are definitely surprising! You're more matter-of-fact with what you have to say.

[underworldpianist]

Hm, well, you're deserving of them, so I think it's fair to tell you what I think.

[scooptimistic]

Now that sounds just like you... I guess if it involves fairness, that makes more sense.

[underworldpianist]

It's a sensible way to look at it, right?