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[withwisdom]

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Addressed to all:

Now that things have settled again after the recent incident, I want to make an offering.

As a child, and into my adult years, I underwent spiritual training on a daily basis to forge a bond with the ancient gods of my land. The purpose of this training was to unlock myself to the world, and gain its wisdom in the process. Though it was a long process, I was successful.

In times of struggle and strife, it can be difficult to figure out where one should turn. It's easy to feel abandoned, and harder to feel united, and you may question if there is any care in the grand scheme of the universe. No one person won't ask themselves if they should take their sufferings and bottle them inside, or reveal them to the world with the fear of judgment. To take hammer to the wall that shields the vulnerable heart is no easy task. Some don't want to break it. Others need help.

To insert an opinion into this, I no longer trust in the higher beings on this realm who brought us here to be of any help. They want us to restore their color, but don't care to grant us any protections in danger. So we must help ourselves, and each other, in times of disillusionment. I've come to feel very strongly about this following the sirens kidnapping.

The purpose of this posting is such: I want to offer myself to others as a spiritual guide. If you feel yourself conflicted, or feeling you have lost your path, or if you want to pray with someone beside you, then you may request me. I ask for nothing in return other than your patience and belief. More so in yourself than me.

If you have questions you may place them here. Comments and discussion into these topics are also accepted.

-Zelda

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[passio]

[ it’s a difficult situation. he wants to be forgiven and relieved of this burden, but he can’t take any forgiveness to heart until he’s convinced himself that it’s all right to move on. when will it be “all right” that he hurt so many people, though? ]

I’m just confused.

That’s why I need to talk to you, if you’re able to help me.

[withwisdom]

I can provide you spiritual guidance, and illuminate the path you walk on through it. To walk down that road, and to forgive yourself at the end of it, is your responsibility.

[ his sins sound grave, and what she won't say is that she deeply worries for him. to her it's a matter far deeper than confusion. it's the spirit in turmoil. one cannot live with so much burden and hope to find peace.

but he isn't asking for platitudes and assurances. she too must keep a distance in this matter - it's the only way she can help him. ]

[passio]

[ dextera takes a deep breath at his laptop. that’s what he needs. not more responsibility, necessarily, but just someone to help him get there. someone who isn’t the archangel, and someone who isn’t biased in his favor. ]

Thank you, Zelda. I don’t want to suffer like this forever.

[withwisdom]

Even a moment of suffering can feel like an eternity.

[ so what does that go to say about a prolonged sort? it's nothing short of brutal. ]

We should set up times to meet. Perhaps once every fortnight? [ hm... although. ] Would you prefer to meet in person or do conversations over our devices?

[ she leaves the option to him. it's easier to be vulnerable when you aren't directly in front of a person sometimes. ]

[passio]

I can organize my thoughts like this.

[ the truth is, he doesn’t want zelda to see him in pain—maybe it will stir up some sympathy, maybe it won’t, but he doesn’t want it either way. he wants an objective, guiding hand. ]

Maybe after you know more, we could meet up in person, but I think this is better for now.

[withwisdom]

Understandable. I'll send you message in the next fortnight then, provided nothing hectic is underway.

[ #fucksirens2018 ]

If anything comes up you need to talk about, you're free to message me whenever you need as well.

[passio]

I don’t know if you understand what this means to me.

I lost my memories. Religion is all I’ve ever had. Maybe we believe in different gods, but I don’t think the fundamentals change when it comes to things like this.

So thank you.

[withwisdom]

[ he's right to say that. she hopes she can come to understand though. ]

I knew someone like that. He was a dear friend, and he had forgotten me entirely. But those memories are never truly lost. The soul still remembers.

[ and he did as well, in time. ]

You're right though. Prayer is less about the gods and more about our relationship to them. I hope when you pray, you can find something dear to channel your energy toward.

[passio]

[ “never truly lost.”

dextera hopes that’s true. he needs it to be true, even if he can’t get those memories back as he is. it’s a punishment, maybe, for his sin—he doesn’t deserve to be whole until he can fix what he’s done. ]

There is a god in my world that I believe in. She wants me to be healed. I just have to get there.

[withwisdom]

And you will.

[ whether it's with her help or not, the determination in taking action makes all the difference. ]

Take care for the time being. You should enjoy the peace while it is here. If you need anything you can always message.