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[shizun]

Is there anyone that has any skill at fixing walls? I fear that one became damaged during the chaos. It does not feel right to leave it partially ruined.

[ Especially since it pretty much has a Shen Qingqiu hole in it due to him being punched into said wall. Sigh!

But hm, moving away from that for a second, he thinks he can finally talk about something while having it sound like "nothing." Idle wondering of a mind getting used to this place! ]

This is a different thread all together. Sometimes, fate says that there is nothing that can be done in order to save one person. And sometimes, you must be the one to bring harm to the person you cherish. But still, you would like to hope even if you were the one to hurt them that they'll grow strong and happy one day, right?

[ If this is something that everyone can read, then... then! ]

The stories that we create for ourselves need not be tragedies if we do not let them be. Even if there is that moment, it can still end well. [ Holy fuck, does he hope that it will! ]

Anyway, the wall is still a problem so I'm hoping for a happy end for that, too.

#EBF5FB | Shen Qingqiu

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[allfornothing]

[ More like, fool me once, shame on you, fool me twice, shame on me. Shame's already on Crowe. She's not exactly jumping at the chance for a third time... ]

Cliche as it may be, but taking it one day at a time?

[shizun]

Even if it is, that is a good way to do things. Perhaps, as you create a present, you can start to look out further. From one day to one week to one month and so on.

This teacher hears your pain and wishes that for you.

[allfornothing]

Thanks but...

I was a soldier to begin with. Not exactly the future-planning type.

Also... teacher of what?

[shizun]

Isn't that not an oxymoron? A soldier that does not think of their future. Then why were you fighting all this time, if not for something better?

[ Sorry, sorry! I said I wouldn't step on something breaking, but you should change that sort of thinking! Did you become a soldier just to die? No one does that! Not even those on Bai Zhan Peak!

Each one of them only has fighting on the brain and can't even think of how to talk to one pretty sister, but!! None of them are so fatalistic! They accept they're going to die but each and every one has a hope for the future! They hope for more chaotic battles, probably. Those lunatics! But they still hope!

So! Saying you're a soldier and that means you're not supposed to ever think of a future?!! Exactly how is that right? I realize you're sad and feeling you can't trust anyone, I absolutely realize it and I feel for you more than anyone else, but I'm stopping you there!! If that's how your people treated you, then I'm mad for your sake now! You hear me! I'm mad! But you! You get mad, too... it's okay to get mad about it, okay? ]

And this teacher teaches cultivation and the four accomplishments all scholars must achieve.

[ He'd say more but he thinks what he said first will probably be more important than what he is the teacher of. ]

[allfornothing]

Some soldiers fight for a future. Others fight because there's something to protect and the attacks are relentless, and some fight because there's nothing else, might as well go out with a bang and take as many of 'em as we can.

[ No, not to die. But the only family that ever took her in were fighting, and she could do it, and the war had been going on for so long, anyway, how was she supposed to stay home and watch them go and come back in fewer numbers, again and again, and they had nothing to lose, either.

Or so she'd thought.

The answer, on the other hand, distracts her. ]

Four... accomplishments?

[shizun]

[ And you were really of the latter? You found people that you could trust and it all turned to ash? He uses that line once again, but isn't it accurate? What the fuck? I hate these stories. If you have no good reason to have a character, just don't have a character. Sitting and constantly kicking a person while they're down is no one's idea of a good time! Does anyone realize that?!

You will have to find a new reason here. [ I have to be firm on this. I'm sorry. Someone has to be firm on it. You have to find a new reason... if for no one else's sake but your own. ]

The four accomplishments. Music, painting, poetry, and learning critical and strategic thinking through chess.

[ Blah blah blah. It doesn't matter what I teach, okay? Think about yourself, okay?! ]

[allfornothing]

[ She was... somewhat of the latter, yes. And one can guess that there was a quota of female characters? Or something along those lines. ]

I don't know, the son of the King I swore to protect is here. Sounds like reason enough.

... huh. Reach people things.

HTML WHY

[shizun]

[ What a loyal subordinate?! Wait, weren't you kicked down by these people and now you're willing to help them out? Seriously, that's real loyal. ]

You don't hold a grudge against him?

And that's right.

Because it's gotta make our lives interesting obv.

[allfornothing]

[ oh, no. King Regis did not. That much, she knows. Her mission had been legit, and any betrayal came from way before his level. ]

No. If the King wanted me destroyed, all he had to do was stop lending me his power, the ability to fight that kept me and the rest of us alive on the front lines. Nobody would have known. Whoever did that to me? It was not the King, and certainly not his son. My loyalty belongs to them. If they want to waste my life, I've given them that right.

They wouldn't really care about me personally enough, anyway. No, the strike came from somewhere far closer to me.

obvs!

[shizun]

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Huh? So wait, the king actually grants soldiers the ability to fight? Like SRPG? Weird! And interesting how she's able to view it like that, too. So that's how it seems to her. Huh! I guess, that's fair?

I'm still a little shocked. I'd be a little mad that the king didn't protect me, at least. And saying they didn't care personally enough about you? Yikes. Very yikes. Yet still willing to look after the son even with that knowledge. I go back to my original comment -- what a loyal subordinate! ]

I see.

Still, you really are a very loyal subordinate. It's something others should feel envious of, honestly. No matter what, you are someone with integrity and I hope that they will come to appreciate your dedication here.

\o/

[allfornothing]

[ It's their job to protect the King. That's why they can borrow some of his powers. That said... why would a King care about someone he's met maybe three times in total ever? She has much fairer expectations than that. ]

Thanks. I'll try to be worth appreciating, anyway. 'Loyal' isn't necessarily always enough.

[shizun]

If it isn't, then your king and prince are not worth following.

[allfornothing]

Not what I meant. Sometimes, all the loyalty and valor are just not enough, and all is lost.

[ Like, oh, her mission to secure the Princess, betrayed. Or the life of King Regis, lost. ]

[shizun]

[ Oh? That point, hm. ]

Maybe. But there is always hope. There is always something to fight for -- you are fighting for your prince, ah? You only get so many chances, are you going to think of them as potential losses?

[allfornothing]

Of course not. I've been in enough battles to know what shit morale can do.

Just not sure there are many people involved who can be envied, that's all.

[ least of all her. ]

[shizun]

[ At least she's not going into it with a poor attitude. Only she absolutely is and doesn't seem to realize it. I'm not really sure how I can help this since it's picking at something painful so I'll just support. ]

I think something got a little confused, but I will say that I believe in you and what you've chosen for yourself.

[allfornothing]

[ That.... gets a surprised pause. It's...

It's not something she hears from many people, whether meant or superficial. ]

Thanks. And for trying to help, as well. I guess my questions got a bit... heavy.

[shizun]

[ No worries. He's been on the Internet. ]

Such is the nature of questions. This teacher understands, so there's no need for thanks. I'm only doing what has been done for me already.

[allfornothing]

Are thanks then only owed when there's no understanding? I thought they were more like an expression of gratitude.

[shizun]

No need to argue about every little thing, ah? I'm saying as grateful as you are that there's no need to thank me, because you'll return what I give you to the world one day.

That is the only thanks this humble one needs.

[allfornothing]

[ That's. A tall order. Because she and hope are on bad terms in the best of circumstances... ]

I'll try.